you probably dont know that you have really hurt me this time.
you probably think that i am just throwing tantrum. But I am really disappointed. Do you really dont understand what I am upset about? Do you care at all how I feel?
Why is it that when you walk away, someone goes after you, but when I walk away, I walk away alone.
Why is it that when you are upset, someone tries their best to cheer you up but when I am unhappy, you say it is my own business. Do you know how hurtful your words are.
You say I am angry for nothing. Do you really not know the reason? You say I did not tell you the reason. Have you been listening to what I said for more than half an hour while you just keep silent. When I am angry you just pretend like nothing has happened and what I am reading is that you are not interested. Your silence tells me “I dont give a damn”. You say when you are angry next time it has nothing to do with me and I dont have to be concerned. I dont know why you are saying this. How you are feeling at any moment has a direct effect on me and I dont know why it does not affect you? I am sorry I have to walk away this time. I have to do this. There is nothing else I can do. I have already done everything I could while keeping my own self esteem.
I half anticipated that someone will grab my arm from behind. It was a long walk home.
My last day of 2009.
